No H8 Campaign

I totally support this campaign! It's everything I want. Acceptance. The main goal of this campaign is simply acceptance. Why is it so hard for America to acknowledge that citizens are citizens and they have unalienable rights...whether they be homosexual or heterosexual. The LGBT community is this generation's target for discrimination. Once upon a time.....discrimination was targeted towards  the black community, then women, now gays. I have hope that this country will realize its own hypocrisy and decide to really live up to its expectations and reputation of being the home of the free.

I'd Rather NOT Be Bipolar.

Bipolar disorder has nearly ruined my social status, my relationship, and my life. I just want this to be over. I feel anger and rage even in the smallest argument. I seek revenge on the people I love the most in this world. It took me a while to finally seek out help for my unhappiness and extreme mood swings. I created my own reality. My life as I knew it was a lie. I forged friendships, honors, happiness...EVERYTHING. I hid behind a smile that earned me compliments. I pretended really hard to be happy. I found the love of my life and haven't even been respectful to her. I sought out revenge on her when I personally felt wronged. When life got me down, I took it out on her. But she hasn't left me and now I realize that if I don't start appreciating her, I could very well lose her. I'm soo good at pretending, but when I begin to feel comfortable around people, I unintentionally push them away. Whether it be because of my language and choice of words, or because my anger and self-pity overcomes me.

In my youth, I have done things that I am not proud of. However, I have come far from previous years, but I am still not done. I have a LONG way to go to happiness. but I must learn to love myself before I can love anyone or accept love from anyone else. My whole life I knew something wasn't right, but could never pinpoint where the anger came from. And the saying that misery loves company was quite true in my case. I look back and I am ashamed of how many useless arguments Ive started with my one and only soulmate. Now I am terrified that she may find comfort in someone else's arms.


Even with the much unwanted medications, I still find myself in situations I wish i could undo. I wish I had a remote controlled life, and whenever I stray from the right path, I could simply push the rewind button and try it again, but that's just a fantasy I have that will never be true.


I have to be strong now more than ever, because I'm about to undergo some serious transformations in my behaviors and attitude. I cannot run anymore people out of my life. In my condition, I need as much support as I can get. I have to change my whole way of life and my whole outlook on life. Yesterday I would have said that life is just something you get through until you die and move on into the afterlife. But today, I see life as something to be enjoyed, and not taken for granted. I can't believe how much time I have wasted on useless, unimportant things. I cannot wait for the day I am UNCONDITIONALLY happy, but until that day I have a task to achieve and I cannot fail. I will not fail.